时间变的越来越简单的流逝,生活却充满起伏.

 

静静的.静静的.

 

有两篇论文要赶.我对中医的信心也在经历种种的考验.我一直在努力,因为我相信我做的选择.

 

I am getting further everyday from where I started.

 

 

Good Luck, Henry.

 

马上就要赶去学校了..不为别的,只是因为合唱队要排练....意外的成了男低音......

 

今天心情好了很多,果然是心情好一切都好.虽然该死的考试就要来了,不过我现在觉得充满挑战和力量.

 

忙碌而充实.

 

我执着的寻找着,在密林里. 不要因为鱼缸破碎而难过,把你的鱼捧在手心里,它会因为你的顽强而继续呼吸~

 

大家继续找......要开心,要笑^0^

 

 

花谢花飞花满天,红消香断有谁怜?

 

心情不怎么好,读着葬花词的时候忽然很感慨.

尸体,没有想象中的恐惧,只是有一些不知所措的沉默.

 

我生活在一种奇怪的状态中,冷暖自知. 其实最近情绪一直挺好,只是有些突如其来的变化让我感到惶恐.

 

地铁的车厢拥挤,人群涌动.塞上耳机,把<离歌>设定成重复播放.在似苦非笑的呼啸声中坐过了站.起身弹掉身上的痕迹,继续赶路.

 

18路难以置信的爬行了半个多小时还是没有走出广场地带.对着对座的老外苦笑,一句terrible打开了话匣子.

 

我没有在责怪你,只是我今天晚上真的需要好好的睡一觉.其实我现在很想见到你.

 

外面的天, 有点冷.

 

我很好,只是我需要一点点喘息~还好,又是双修日了  :)

 

 

Life in TCM has been quite smooth so far. Time is always racing with me. I desperately find my English is deteriorating everyday.

But it's not as painful as the expanding suspicion haunting me all these days.

My tremendous passion for TCM has been cooled down by the rising suspicion due to the learning of western medicine at the same time. It's terrible. I still love TCM. However, I am not that confident as usual. Some parts of the theories of TCM is fairly hard for me to accept. The so-called bilingual class of TCM, it seems to me, is a bad idea. I will never hope to learn TCM as a foreign. Fortunately, besides the required courses, I also choose the History of TCM. Through this lesson, I am kinda saving my dying passion for TCM. By reviewing the long journey of the development of TCM, I profoundly realize that I have underestimated our ancestors' wisdom. The accumulation of the experience promotes the value of TCM. With the cost of thousands years and countless lives, TCM established its unique status among all the traditional medicine all over the world.

I feel so terrible of myself. But I will not give up. The menacing emulation of Korea alerts us that we are gonna be the last generation of demolishing the grand cultural building established by our brilliant ancestors.

I am convincing myself that it's possible and bearable if there are some mistakes or flaws in the theory of TCM. But our nation can never live continuously to today without TCM.

 

More importantly, the fall and fading of our traditional culture can be the dawn of the elimination of WE CHINESE.

 

Are we really coming back now? Where am I now?

 

At the end, I wanna mention lu and shi. Two decent people who are from the same district of me. Pretty glad to know you, it's my great pleasure and honor. Wish you all nice.

                                                                                Henry

                                                                                Oct.14.2006

很早就听人说,一个人不可能和所有人都成为朋友. 我一直当笑话来听.

 

It really bothers me when someone tells me that he has a fairly bad impression of me. I would crazily ask myself what's  exactly wrong I've done. I used to try hard to hold a good relationship with everyone I know despite of his flaws. Coz I am not impeccable too.

 

You know what, I just don't care about it any more! I was infuriated today when someone told me that she constantly thought poorly of me. Holy Jesus!

 

印象中我一直注意与人相处见的分寸,所以我比较在意别人对我不好的印象,并尝试pleasing everyone. But now I profoundly realize that it's not gonna be possible to please everyone no matter how hard I try.

 

当有人一身洋装的跟你争辩关于爱国的问题时,我选择沉默.

 

今天在读辜鸿铭的the Spirit of Chinese people. 用英文是一种错误么? 当一个中国人用无可挑剔的英文表述中华文化的时候,是不是比所谓的爱国人士做的更真切些?

 

Well, holding your naive patriotism and continuing teasing your colored hair when you are looking down on me.

 

全球化的过程中,自大的高傲一无是处. 当听说韩国开始他们所谓的韩医的申遗行动时,我们该醒醒了. 好在, 全世界都明白TCM的含义.

 

You know what, I don't give a damn to your pretence~ I can honestly tell you that English is an indispensable part of life. And it can never dwindle my love for TCM and our Nation!

 

今天因为某人的态度激怒了我,故此牢骚几句.

受到某人的影响,我在mp3里放入了信乐团的<离歌>. 上星期几乎每天都能在寝室里听到他自恋的吼声...

 

的确是很好的一首歌.我不听中文歌已经很多年,但是最近忽然发现了不少好歌,最近一直在听的就是周杰伦的新歌.我喜欢他是因为他坚持的中国风.听过了太多港台的风格,听过了太多的翻唱,大部分歌手已经让我的神经麻木.他算是例外.信乐队的离歌也让我听到了一些特别东西.其实二胡真的是很好听的一种乐器.

 

听了一遍又一遍的离歌,我忽然开始思考关于love的问题.一个很古老的问题.我对于这个问题已经淡忘了很久.

 

What is Love? 

 

其实我一直以为我知道..."想留不能留才最寂寞"...

 

夜深了. 亲爱的, 你是否梦在我清醒的记忆中. 沉默.

 

 

生活迈入了正轨.忙碌的两个星期,调整适应新的生活.在博物馆,合唱团获得一席之地.

 

生命,从离开到回归用了我无法计算的跨度.

安静的夜里,我开始回起迷茫的岁月.

 

Jobs在给Harvard毕业生的演讲里讲到, I am doing what I love. 这才是最重要的.

 

记得李照国在上节课讲到,诸位应该感谢上帝对诸位的眷顾,学医是重新认识世界的过程.

 

我承认,全英文的解剖书看得我很晕,但是仅仅是小小的人体却蕴涵着不逊色于宇宙的纷繁和奥秘.造物主的神奇让人惊叹.

已经不想去争辩关于进化论的种种,人类能回过来认识自身是可喜的.精气为人,烦气为虫.作为世间的精华,如果作出精华的贡献才是重要的.

 

感谢我哥和老王,小猪以及其他很多朋友在这两个星期给我的指点和教导.

我的生命开始进入轨道.

It's my passion of life to bridge the cultural gap.